This is a word that I have so much fear of. Its been such a part of my life for as long as I can remember. And this month I'm feeling it so much more. Almost a year ago was when my mom left. She has always been the most important player in me feeling abandoned. Christmas Eve will be such a reminder of that lonely feeling. And this year I am struggling with being without my husband during this time, he is currently deployed. Its just hard and I feel all alone.
.....this was gonna be much longer but I changed my mind and couldn't get me words together tonight.